Sunday, December 4, 2011

So, It's Been Awhile

It has obviously been awhile since my last post, and as I'm approaching my second-to-last final exams (maybe ever), I have naturally become a little more reflective. The purpose of this blog was to keep everyone updated on my travels, or at least thoughts while traveling. I didn't think I'd write much when I returned, because honestly, there's not too many things exciting about Oxford, Miss. Maybe in my eyes or some of my friends, but in the bigger scheme of things, I'm in a bubble.

But it's times like these that I realize a lot of what is to be learned about life is in places like Oxford. This semester I've learned more about people - their generosity, their tenacity, and their courage, but also about their hollowness, their greed, and their sense of entitlement. I've been trying to think about my undergraduate years in a 'big picture' sense, which is very strange to me right now. It will never be irrelevant, but it is so peculiar to me how much I've learned at a very small, but very special place, in just four years.

I've always said I've learned both good and bad from Ole Miss. Let me tell you, both the good and the bad multiplied ferociously this semester. As one was revealed in someone or something, so was the other. I'm the type of person that likes to see more good than bad, but I also know that sometimes it takes bad to see good. But, as I'm constantly reminded, things, in general, could always be a lot worse.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I've had a heck of a semester. I don't think I really have all that much to show for how I've grown (not physically, unfortunately). I've seen how love is not forever, and much one's capability to truly love is directly correlated to their relationship with God. I've seen people give from the bottom of their hearts. I've had parents basically adopt me this semester. I've seen what family and friends really mean to Southerners. I've seen death take its ugly toll on people who had barely yet lived. I've seen girls at their sweetest and girls at their cattiest. I've seen myself learn true forgiveness, but I've also seen myself develop some callousness. I now know what it's like to break bridges, but make up for it by building multiple newer, stronger ones. I know how important it is to be genuinely thoughtful, only because of the way people think of me. I've learned that my parents have actually stopped calling me out on my mistakes, which is one step closer to what I deem the 'real world.' I've developed a conflict between being jealous of those whose lives are utterly simple, yet I simultaneously want the world at my feet. I've seen people that live for the feeling of a small town, and realized that their efforts for a small stage are just as valid and admirable as any world heroes'. I've realized it's okay to be gooby and gay if it means I'm not taking something for granted. I've realized that 21 years of age is very young, but there is definitely certain things expected of me at this point. I now know that I will get no where by myself, and it's just as important to thank the people that helped me along the way as getting there in the first place. I've realized just how great it is to have a place to call home, and for it to welcome me just the same every time I return.

One last thing, I've realized (many a time now), the more I think I know, the more I have to learn. 

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Never Alone


I barely had time to think about the end of CLS. The emotions were definitely there, getting off the plane as most of the others headed back to the comforts of home. It was unfortunately quick, as I said to myself - get your stuff, don't whack anyone with the tripod, go back and get your wallet that you left in the plane seat (this is not a good start), run out as the Lufthansa ladies begin to raise their voices, pray silently, and eventually aloud, that your bags with thousands of dollars of equipment is at the baggage claim, don't see it and try not to panic, speak some form of ameeya that you don't recognize to find your bags, praise God for their arrival and say Ramadan Kareem to everyone that helped you, find a cab to take you to the bus station, "yes I'm married," argue over tipping (I'm a poor student never works), consider yourself lucky to have gotten to the bus station an made it on a tiny bus that has no set time of leaving for Dubai, exchange Omani dates instead of paying the extra charge for all of your luggage, "no I'm not moving to Dubai I just have a lot of stuff," make friends with sweet Filipino lady Joy, get dropped off on the median of the 10 lane interstate, get sick upon getting bags to the hotel room,and wow, you're locked out of the bathroom, it's ok to pout because you didn't have sahoor, and finally give it all up because you are in a place you've always dreamed of going and thank God for always providing... now, reach a sense of calm because in however impersonal a city or strange a place - You are never alone.




Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Some Omanis say protests a result of 'Arab Spring': Why a historically peaceful state is witnessing outbreaks

Compared to other Arab nations, the Sultanate of Oman flies relatively under the radar.

It could be because a seemingly isolated tradition of peace exists in the Omani culture, between religious sects and multitudes of etnicities.  But really, development has been the only news in Oman for the past 40 years, all under the reign of Sultan Qaboos bin Said.

There's no arguing with government-incentivized development, especially when there are essentially no taxes, healthcare is free, and land is given to every citizen.

Yet, within the past six months, a spark of small protests continue to break out across the country, the most recent concentrated in the port city of Sohar, about 125 miles north of the Omani capital of Muscat.

Friday a demonstration erupted after prayers at Shaikh Khalifa mosque in the Tareef area of Sohar. The estimated size of the protest varies among sources, ranging from a reported three dozen to 150 demonstrators total.

Protestors demanded the release of activists arrested in February for protesting or staging sit-ins in Muscat, Salalah, Sur and Sohar, according to Gulf News. They chanted slogans saying that their jailed colleagues did not deserve to go to prison for making genuine demands, and later handed over a letter of demands to officials.

In February, those 25 colleagues were charged with vandalism, rioting and throwing handmade bombs at security forces, according to Reuters.

Police refrained from intervening last Friday.

Protestors were also quoted demanding higher wages, more employment opportunities, and political reform, according to The Times of Oman.

These demonstrations continue despite Sultan Qaboos promising a $2.6 billion spending package and government creation of 50,000 public sector jobs, according to Reuters. The Sultan also recently introduced an unemployment service of 150 rials, or $390 per month for the jobless. Unemployment in Oman was last estimated at 15 percent in 2004, according to the CIA World Factbook.

Yet, the fact that a protest even occured shocked some Omanis. Some just shook their heads in amusemest, stating the protests 'weren't important,' and the only people that care to protest are 'those without jobs.'
But, what has been revealed as a result of the protests could be part of a much more serious concern in Omani government and society.

My Omani Colloqial Dialect teacher, who wishes to remain unnamed, shared her thoughts on the start of the protests and the reasons for them.



Personal Notes:
-I apologize for not having the ability to edit video on my computer.
-Not from my own experience, but from what I've heard in Oman, the south part of Oman, closest to Yemen, seems to be traditionally more conservative than the north.
-Take from her thoughts your own conclusions on what is really going on :)

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Surely people don't think America is really like that...

Before traveling, I am typically reminded by authorities, sponsors, teachers, whomever, to be mindful that the rest of the world thinks America is just like what makes the news and the movies, mostly so that I am careful not to reaffirm those assumptions.

We typically don't think twice about Hollywood. Movies and television shows often depict ridiculously exaggerated scenes, whether it be sex, relationships, wealth, etc. We just chalk it up to it 'being in the movies,' therefore, it probably wouldn't happen in real life.

For example, The Hangover - this is obviously an account of a bachelor party on the extreme end of the spectrum (or at least I hope). It's so far fetched that it's funny. From what I understand, bachelor parties can get pretty crazy, but I assume most of the attendants don't end up with a random infant, a missing tooth, or an Asian enemy.

Another example, The Bachelor/Bachelorette - in reality, one person doesn't always get to date multiple astonishingly good-looking, over-dramatic, self-absorbed people at one time, all while living in some incredible corner of the world where the dates are more extravagant than a lot of couples' honeymoons.

Also, we all know that all news is bad news. Good news just doesn't usually make the cut. I can definitely justify this as a journalist, because it's typically the most important. It's great if thousands of dollars get donated to a local charity, but a local shooting is more likely to directly affect your daily life; therefore, when it comes to newsgathering and editorial selection, I'm going to report on the shooting. This shooting, though, is also a rare occurrence, and Americans know to understand this type of circumstance as something that differs from the norm. Let's be honest, everyday life in Oxford can be, well, quite boring.

Given these examples, I think, 'there's no way people think America is really like that.' It's just...not possible.

Well, I might never know the extent to which the rest of the world believes America is like these examples, but I can guarantee movies and news contribute to the overall perception of American culture, and especially distort the reality of American everyday life.

Just like the Bollywood movie I watched last night made me question whether or not random groups of people in spandex break out in dance in India, whether love triangles between extremely attractive people are standard, and whether unmarried women and men get as close in public, or private as they were in the film.

That's when I caught myself. I knew the movie was somewhat of an exaggeration, but I began to think, there has to be some basis for this male teen character going back and forth between beautiful, skinny girls, getting to second base with them - this must actually happen in India, or else it wouldn't be portrayed in the film.

There's the connection. Planted in the viewers' minds then is some murky shape of an idea of what young adult relationships are like in India. But, sometimes that glimpse into the culture becomes enough for some people to make a value judgement.

That's exactly how people form their perceptions of America.

But, they haven't seen just one movie, like I've seen half of a Bollywood film (finishing it tonight - they are notoriously long). They've seen hundreds of examples of American culture, and so reinforced is the perception. Every major movie that you can think of has probably showed in a place you haven't heard of, that crazy story you found this morning from whichever news source you use is also being read halfway around the world, and the scandalous perfume ad you saw the other day is also on a billboard or flyer somewhere where perfume can't even be purchased.

Here are the results of the formed perceptions:

If I wear skinny jeans, I could also be into an alternative lifestyle. If I'm blonde, I am most likely from California. Or, if I'm Christian, I might want to burn the Quran.

So, not only am I careful now, I'm also active. I'm active in breaking whatever solidification of a perception comes my way.

I get the feeling it will be this way for awhile.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Five (Of My Favorite) Ways CLS Students Would Recommend to Learn Arabic

1- For practice writing Arabic, translate English pop songs into Arabic (for starters, TikTok by Kesha is a pretty fun one).

2- To speed up your reading and comprehension, read the Arabic crawl at the bottom of the screen on Al Jazeera news channel (this also encourages people to actually pay attention to television journalism!).

3- For listening practice, listen to Arabic movies. An anecdote: Arab movies are quite possibly the most dramatic, but funny movies. The story lines aren't always believable, and the actors aren't necessarily good looking either. Guaranteed entertainment.

4- To perfect your pronunciation, take private singing lessons! Naturally. Singing in classical Arabic is a lot of fun, and most singers use intonation.

5- To improve your Arabic overall, just be as sarcastic as possible. Arabs might not understand you, but it really tests your knowledge of the true meaning of words.


Through the Eyes of a 20-year-old American Accustomed to the College Way of Dating


I am now into my third week of classes, so I feel I can explain a little more on the Omani culture, which I've been dying to share with y'all.

First of all, I came into Oman having one basis for comparison: Cairo.

I should have thrown that out of the window the first day.

In American terms, Cairo is the equivalent of New York -- restaurants around every corner, everything within walking distance. Muscat is about like Dallas, wonderful, clean, but very spreadout. Cairo is a giant ball of energy; there is always someone yelling beside you, a bike zooming past you, or a guy whistling at you hoping to make eye contact (this is not to say that I miss that). In Muscat, people are very polite, calm, and easy-going. There's nothing to be angry about here. The economy is good, your neighbors are nice, and the terms Sunni and Shi'a are virtually irrelevant (most are Ibadi anyway).

I came to Muscat after being in New York for 9 days. Not long, but enough to light a fire under me and speed up my pace. That being said, my first impression of Oman was not all that great. Many of the women here are very conservative in their actions. This may seem obvious, but for me it was a little more of an adjustment. For example, it's not all that common for women to go out at night. And, if a woman is by herself at all, this is very strange. Smoking sheesha (hooka) is pretty widely prohibited in conservative families, and personal interaction between genders is not common. Women don't shake men's hands unless approached by the man first. And, as I figured out the hard way, it's not appropriate to ask a man his age, because it makes you seem interested (I can see that happening in American culture as well).

So, that's the facade at least. A little exploration has led to a world of questions. There is an obvious difference between youth that has studied in Western cultures, like the UK or America, and their purely Omani counterparts, that have not left the country for school. I'm lucky to have made a few friends in both situations. A guy friend that studied in the UK will open up about typical college pressures and the dating scene in Oman, which is something I'm dying to know more about.

Our teachers or more conservative peer facilitators tell us that the father of the family chooses a suitor for his daughter, and she either accepts or rejects the guy (in theory). What happens more often is that rejection is not too common, and the daughter must try to remain close to her father growing up so that he chooses an acceptable suitor. The two families will usually have outings together so the young ones will (hopefully) get to know each other and like each other.

My guy friend, on the other hand, took us to dinner one night at a cafe on Sharea'a Al Hob, which literally means 'love street.' He joked and said, "This is where you bring dates." I don't know if too many 'dates' occur there, but its definitely a hot spot for young adults at night.

*Side note: The gulf/Emirates' way of showing of money is in ridiculous cars. Oman doesn't even have a public transportation system, but does have Aston Martin and Porshe dealerships.*

So, the young males zoom down this straight road, which is actually a bridge over some marshland leading into the gulf, revving their Lamborghinis, Range Rovers, Jaguars, and Rolls Royces (no joke).  Lexuses and BMWs are also common, but only the extremely tricked-out kind. This is all very funny to watch, because the ultimate contradiction is personified: the technology behind cars and BBM contrasted with the traditional dress of the dishdasha (white nightie) and kumma (little hand-woven cap) or turban.

And, following their gender roles, the girls go out in groups in beautifully Swarovski-Crystal embellished abiyas (the black cloak) and matching hijabs (scarf around the head). Their make up reminds me slightly of Lady Gaga... bright pink matte lipstick, thick black eyeliner winged to the sides of their cheeks, and mean but perfectly trimmed and defined brows that could kill someone.

And, that's about it. No interaction, no body language. No small talk, no pick-up lines. No sharing sheesha, no giggling.

It baffles me.

I'm still waiting to figure out exactly what an Omani date is, if they even occur.

Bless their hearts, Omanis and their hospitality


You might never guess, but one part of Omani culture really reminds me of the South - the hospitality and their treatment of guests (Alhamdulillah).

My Omani colloquial dialect teacher Rehma is the epitome of ettiquette. I think she opens up a little more to my class, because it's just five girls, but boy is she sassy. I was very thankful when she went through the polite way to greet, introduce, and gather in an Omani's home. If you are invited to an Omani's home, you bring always bring a small happy, usually sweets or Omani Haluwa (their own sweet desert, basically gelatin made from dates, a lot of sugar, and nuts). You leave it at the door, as not to be noticed. You also take off your shoes, wait to be invited in, shown where to sit. There is traditionally a men's sitting room and women's sitting room in Omani houses. Pretty nice way of keeping bro-time and girl talk separated.

But, here's where it gets oddly comparable. The typical afternoon hello, as compared to the South:

Oman: The Omani family greets you, asks about everything in your life, then offers you coffee and dates. You say 'no, thank you' for the first couple of times.

the South: You're stop by a friend's in the afternoon. You're offered a coke, or if they start early, a drink. You're really thirsty from it being so hot out, but you don't want to impose.

Oman: The third time they ask, they insist, because otherwise 'they have to finish it all.' So then, you begin to eat. You can't refuse at this point. Then they'll offer you seconds. Once again, you NEVER refuse. Then comes thirds. And so on. Basically, even if you're full, there is no getting out of it. Just keeping eating.

the South: They offer you a drink again. You say, "Well, are you sure?" And right away they shuffle off to whip something up, and come out with a cheese and cracker tray along with your drink. Then you sit down and begin to catch up, and as soon as your drink is low, you're filled right back up.

Also, I have paid for an Omani's meal maybe once. As long as I am an American in Oman, 'I am a guest,' and I am completely taken care of.  Men will often pay for the whole table's meal, and we've even had Iranians from a completely different table offer to pay for our meal at a very nice restaurant, all because we were guests.

Monday, June 13, 2011

How I Uncovered the Secret Behind the Veil



Caution: Some blanket statements.

Americans, Westerners alike are enthralled with, bewildered by, and abhorred at Middle Eastern Muslim women's conservative dress. Why would someone ever want to cover their hair, face, entire body from sight? From daylight even?

Westerners argue that women lose identity, lose the freedom of expression by being (indirectly) forced into wearing what has become a cultural icon, synonymous (to Westerners) with the oppression of women and simultaneous death to any entertainment of sensual thoughts - the veil, hijab, or one of its various names.

Quick interjection: I don't actually have anything against a veil or hijab, I sometimes even prefer to wear it in Oman. We'll save that explanation for a rainy day.

I think what really gets us is the mystery behind the veil. Americans love transparency, openness, and information. A veil represents, or even acts as, the polar opposite. We think that behind the veil a Muslim woman might have something to hide. We're curious - what does her hair really look like? Does she have a pretty smile? Her hair must be very thick, long, and luscious to fill out that scarf! How does she eat when her mouth is covered?

Well, I can now answer one of those questions. In Oman, I have especially noticed the size of women's heads underneath the hijab. The hijabs here are intricately decorated and so, so beautiful; I would almost call some of them a headdress. The proportion of the head and (assumed) bun underneath are grand compared to the petite women under the cloak. It makes for a very feminine silhouette.

Back to the bun. All along, I have just (in my head) been thinking, 'the women just must have really thick, big hair -- kind of like Texans'. Completely normal comparison, especially after admiring Kalee Bodey's hair for three years now. I mean, their hair must be shampoo-commercial gorgeous underneath there. I picture the Lebanese movie stars, or Egyptian pop singers.

Well, today I unveiled one of the best kept secrets of the Muslim world. The sky-high crown is not actually their own! Like the God-forsaken Americans that ordered "Bump Its," Muslim women attach a hair piece, much like a bath loofa, to their buns, and then wrap their heads, creating the headdress.





....And I thought we were high maintenance.

As a wise man, Damian from Mean Girls, once said:
"That's why her hair is so big, it's full of secrets!"

More secrets to come, Insha'Allah.






Sunday, June 12, 2011

the *new* me (well, kinda)







This post has nothing to do with my studies or the Middle East.

It's something a little more personal.

I have always wanted to be able to cook. I am usually pretty creative, whether it be painting or just using a hot glue gun, but letting my creativity come out in cooking, or even preparing food, is at the very least extremely intimidating. In my mind, I can, and always will, mess something up -- between measuring oil, tasting the food, the physics of boiling water, the colors of something cooked, the art of seasoning, having control over knives... I'm already getting goosebumps. Luckily, I will have lived *on-campus* all four years of undergrad, therefore I haven't even had a kitchen of my own to entertain these fears.

So... I'm tackling them now.

And it's so much fun!

Of course, I'm taking baby, baby steps. We're talking right out of the womb. But, thanks to my first kitchen (minus an oven - but the stove is sufficing), and my roommate Lili who loves to cook and experiment, I am being introduced to a whole new world. 

The first step, which I'm still working on, is making the grocery list. Why would I ever know what I need to eat or drink (besides Diet Coke) when every meal is prepared for me at the sorority house or at the Student Union? I'm also not big on spending extra money, so I stick to what's already provided -- Miss Annie's and Miss Martha's amazing cooking and a meal plan. 

Jump forward to Oman: My first grocery trip was a disaster, on top of the added obstacles of being in a foreign country, in the market on Friday when every Omani and their entire tribe goes, which also means constantly avoiding harassment and staring, as well as navigating through LuLu, a store twice the size of the average Wal*Mart Supercenter where aisles aren't exactly arranged in the most logical way. For example, Tang has nearly an entire aisle dedicated to its many flavors of powder, rice has an entire aisle, and so do mangoes. 

Anyway, I ended up with Special K, Nutella, a loaf of bread, and Diet Coke. The absolute necessities. But, nothing to cook for dinner, etc.

Since then, Lili has been making every sort of pasta, sauce, and vegetable known to my feeble brain. So, today, on my second pilgrimage to LuLu, I tackled the produce section. I bought lemons, limes, apples, grapes, avocados, tomatoes, garlic, cantaloupe, pineapple, and onion. This took me quite awhile, but I am still feeling pretty accomplished.

And, I have now reaped the seeds of my labor (metaphorically speaking, because it was more fun than anything). I made some simple guacamole, a fruit salad (maybe salad is a euphemism for just mixed fruit), and (real) strawberry lemonade for the first time ever. 

Lili showed me up with some delicious butter cream icing. She was craving cupcakes all day, so she satisfied it in the best way possible, considering we don't have an oven.

So, here's what I've checked off my list:
-using a sharp knife and cutting board
-slicing and dicing fruit (some of it kind of difficult)
-eye-balling measurements (no measuring cups)
-breaking away from a recipe (guacamole only, but still)
-mixing
-tasting and adding (learned a tricky lesson from this - add less than you think you'll need... you can keep adding, but not always take away, hence the extra tomato in the guacamole)

From here on out, Lili and I are going to attempt one new cooking project each week. I have a couple simple ideas, but this is where I was hoping all *four* of you readers would come in. 

Any suggestions?

Friday, June 10, 2011

The Many Uses of a Turban

This week, Sheik Khalfan Al-Esry (google him!) spoke to our group. More like satisfied our American curiosity of the Middle East and cultural differences, all in a pretty hilarious fashion. I'll be posting more from his lecture, but this was by far the most interesting.


Omani men dress very traditionally, even on a daily basis. They wear a dishdasha (the nightee, white dress-looking thing), a kumma (a little hand-woven patterned cap), and sometimes, a turban around the cap (I can't remember the specific name for the turban).


Sheik Khalfan, or Sheik "Have Fun" as he called himself, went into the history and uses of the turban. Some made sense... anyway, a tentative list of a turban's uses:


1) Unwind it, and keep the wind and dirt out of your face -- you can still see through it!
2) The lazy way to make your kumma more formal
3) Unfold it, use it as a tent or blanket in the desert; just use your walking stick or sword as the post, of course
4) Use the tassels on the end as floss for your teeth (after BBQ, which he loves)
5) Put it across two camels to make a shade
6) Prayer rug
7) Tie several together as a rope to send a bucket into a well
8) Wrap someone who has deceased (a Muslim tradition)
9) Keep your kids entertained with it



weekEND

Well, it's about 2AM here, and I made the mistake of drinking coffee at 9PM.... so I'm wide awake.  We start class again tomorrow -- the weekends here are Thursdays and Fridays, Friday being the prayer day. I can't believe it's already one week down, seven more to go. I have a feeling things are going to be kicked up a notch pretty soon...

I've already gotten used to the heat and humidity. Of course, I'm one of the fortunate ones that didn't have much adjusting to do coming from Mississippi. But, it's a different kind of heat here. It literally feels like you've stepped foot inside a sauna -- raw heat without any sort of smell, no breeze, and a slight dampness that makes your hands instantaneously sticky; the type where you're really glad you're wearing cotton. My sunglasses fog up within three seconds.

That's what made the beach so great this weekend.  Thursday morning, Candace (one of my roommates) and two Omani friends and I went to the Oman Diving Center. We missed the activities for the day, which were dolphin watching, snorkeling, diving, etc., but we swam for awhile which was just as satisfying (however, I WILL go dolphin watching soon). The diving center is tucked away in a small cove, about a ten minute drive from the mountains.

The cool thing about Muscat is that the city is 45 km long, but only 4km wide. Everything is along the coast.  And, just behind those 4km of development, is a gorgeous mountain range.  The rock is the color of the Sahara, and in this cove, it slides into the sea. The water is a beautiful turquoise, and is shallow for quite some distance.  The sand heats up like a skillet.... literally. Within two seconds of taking our shoes off, we were sprinting like madmen for the water. It was even difficult to stand still long enough to take a picture.


Needless to say, I love it here!

Friday, June 3, 2011

First Thoughts on Oman (Oh-man)


So, it's been less than 24 hours since we landed in Muscat, and I'm already loving it. Last night was one of the most humid - my hands were nearly wet from being outside for ten minutes. Apparently the average daily high is 115F... thank goodness I was inside most of the day today.

Muscat is about 4km wide and 45km long, just like any beach town in America. We are staying in Midan Hotel, which is around 800m the coast (I apologize for the metric system - it's what the rest of the world insists on running by). I have three sweet-as-can-be roommates: Lili who goes to Kenyon College, Candace who will start grad school at Columbia in the Fall, and Zan (short for Alexandra) Pomona College. We share what is basically an apartment, which is so nice, way more than I would have ever expected. It's my first time to have a kitchen in college, after every year on campus!

We haven't had too much interaction with actual Omanis, but Oman is such a huge change from Cairo last summer. Cairo=New York; Muscat=Santa Barbara. It is absolutely beautiful, very clean, and much better off than its other Middle Eastern counterparts.

I had my first Omani hypermarket experience tonight... talk about crazy. "Lu Lu's," as it's called, is like a much nicer souq, with all shapes, sizes, and colors of people reaching for the same items simultaneously on the shelves. It's also much more comprehensive than Wal*Mart; you can find anything there, including designer watches. People just eat the produce from the baskets then walk off... quite amusing.

A few of us made our first trip to the beach tonight. It is like bath water, in concurrence with the 91 degree air. The smell of salt rises to your nose about 10 feet before the water. The sand is not white, but we were just right off the street. I snuck a dip in my bathing suit, because I'm not too sure how many more times I'll get to go in the water without being completely covered.

We have our first day of Omani dialect class tomorrow. I feel like I've already been here for three days.

I'll be posting more stories soon :)

Monday, May 30, 2011

Alvin Gans - Navy Vet and Dumpster Diver Extraordinaire


Someone's trash can be another's treasure.

My grandfather usually says this to justify hoarding.

But, 83-year-old New Yorker Alvin Gans is making a living off of this very motto.  The Korean War Navy Vet can be found nearly every afternoon at Union Square in Manhattan, selling what he finds in dumpsters.
Wednesday, Alvin hoped to sell a canvas for $5 -- one you wouldn't always call trash, depicting gold antique keys with an intriquite background of cerulean and brick flowered patterns.  Brush strokes of deep shading look like folds of silk.

That's what caught my eye, along with what Alvin calls "his bling" around his neck -- a strand of black thread, hand-tied, with two mistmatched, synthetic pendants that drop to the middle of his sunken sternum.  One is silver with a jade-esque stone, the other "cubic zirconia" as he told me, that would be equivalent of about six carats.

His manner is what you would expect from an enthusiastic stock broker with a New York accent.  He'll definitely open up, but as soon as he senses a subject he is not interested in, he resorts to one-word, not standoffish, but conclusive answers.

It was hot outside, but the prospect of selling his painting wasn't.  So, he accepted my offer for the afternoon - to sit down and roll back to his memory lane, while my tiny camera recorded.

As it turns out, Alvin has been living in those dorms for 30 years.  He began to live there while it was still a hotel. In and out. Everyday.

Although he has a room, he still carries the most dear items with him everywhere in an old tattered leather box.  That's where I got to see the old Alvin.

Alvin is not a lonely person. He had a brother and sister-in-law whom he loved dearly.  They passed in the early 2000s, so now he talks to the people in the park, along with some unnamed others. Alvin has kept stacks of historical pictures for years in the box, and lights up to get to pull them out. In his eyes, they were taken just yesterday.

The tenent at the dorms, Juan Gomez, said "he sometimes brings people in, his friends from lunch or whatever. But, we don't talk much."

Alvin has not worked in a while. He is 83 with no family left. He needs $5 for a painting he found. But, he says he's pretty well off.

"I made a few investments a few years back that have kept me on my feet," he said.

Perhaps the most astonishing, and upsetting part of our whole run-in was just how happy he was.  There can't be a happier person in New York City at any given point than Alvin Gans. His outlook on life is probably the reason he has survived.

"I'm 83, I gotta be happy," he said with his nearly toothless smile. "If I'm not happy I'll be sad."

I've told several New Yorkers this story, and they think I'm crazy. I'm not stupid, I know it's not safe to go up to strangers that appear homeless and chat it up. Maybe I'll be eating these words someday, and I probably only believe it because I'm an outsider that tends to put too much trust in people, but the chance was completely worth it.

I'm still sorting my thoughts on the whole conversation. He kept telling me that I would have a bright future and I shouldn't worry about it. 'Worry' must have been written on my forehead. I don't think he has any idea what he did for me. I just hope buying that painting did a little for him.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

We Need (real) Journalists

Dear Meek School of Journalism and New Media: Thank you for everything you've given me -- which is usually the inspiration and encouragement to tell whole, true stories in the most effective way possible, but also (as I've come to realize) the shelter from nay-sayers and truth-haters (for lack of more spiteful terms).

I looked up "journalism" quotes today, and was quickly discouraged. First one by Margot Asquith, talking about how bullish press can be. Okay. True, to an extent. I'll take it. Second by Carl Bernstein -- "The lowest form of popular culture has overrun real journalism." That one kind of stung. Two negatives in a row. Keep scrolling, looking for some relief... nope, still negative... still negative... and end of page one: last quote is still about how much journalism sucks.

Alright.

My first thought is, well, none of these people were ever journalists, or they hated a journalism course they took in school. Second thought is - they're absolutely right. This is certainly a deeply-held perspective on journalism and its role in society, and some journalists aren't working to prove them wrong.

Then, I remember something I've heard twice this week in NYC: "We need journalists."

This first came on the subway when a guy named Ryan Snow, about 24 or 25, carrying a saxophone on his back, began to ask me about a rather large canvas I had in my hand. I gave him the run-around... I got it from some guy in a park. Well, the real story was I bought this beautifully painted canvas from Alvin Gans, an 83-year-old navy veteran who lives by himself in a college dorm in lower Manhattan, all because he brought me to tears through me his life story, and made me realize how insignificant the things I worry about can be. He found the painting in the dumpster and was selling it for $5.

So, after all of this was pulled out of me through awkward smalltalk, he asked me what I was in school for. I responded "journalism."

He paused, took a deep breath, shot me a glare, and said "we need journalists."

I can still hear in my head the second time I heard that phrase this week. It's Diane Sawyer's voice, smooth and understated. I picture her shaking her head in her glasses, as I envy the body in her hair that she has at her age.  She asked us about our dream stories - the ones we really wanted to seek out and delve into. We went around the room, and she was either enchanted by what we wanted to do, or a very good actress. That's when she started begging:


"We NEED you. Thank you for wanting to do what we do. I love your stories. We need you."


So, maybe those quotes are right. Maybe there IS a real need for true journalism. True journalism is what I've also wanted to do, I guess now I'm just glad that I know at least two people out there will appreciate it.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Shifted Focus


Hey friends,

For the summer, I decided to shift my focus from religion and faith to my travels. My goal is to tell as many people's stories as possible from the places I'll be visiting (that is, without going against my student visas). I'll be keeping you updated on my own stories as well, which will hopefully be more interesting than my average day in Oxford :).

Attached is a map of where I'll be traveling. If you're in the areas, let me know! I would love to see as many people as possible along the way.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

In-Depth Report: The Internet and The War On Terror

  
      An overarching theme that started to resonate during the tenure of my International Journalism class was the idea of peace journalism and a human, and journalistic responsibility to use your message to do or make good.  I couldn't help but think that this was slightly idealistic, especially considering the way international groups are using new media today.  While it may be our responsibility, the actuality is that the Internet as a medium has proliferated both positive and negative journalism and propaganda.  This all ties into faith because a common misconception exists: terrorism is supported by Islam.  As you'll read, I got into detail about the differences between the current connotation of 'jihad' and it's actual meaning within religious contexts.  Terrorism in the name of Islam is actually only practiced by extremist groups, just like with any other religion.
     I wanted to know why the  Internet is so much more powerful than any traditional medium, and how terrorist groups have made use of it.  Furthermore, what seemed a little overreaching at the time, I wanted to know how their use of the Internet has shaped The War on Terror.  I asked several terrorism experts on campus, as well as sought many academic and media sources.  I actually found many terrorist groups' videos posted online, as Dr. Clark mentions, specifically Al Sahab's website, but all were removed shortly thereafter (the CIA does its best to remove these types of things within 24 hours of posting -- yet another conflict with freedom of expression, in my opinion).  Here's what I found.







Wars have been fought since the beginning of time.  Each and every conflict is unique, which make each and every following war unique.  Entities or nations involved actively choose the ways in which they engage in warfare, whether physical combat or psychological brainwashing, or anything in between.
The War on Terror has set an incredible precedent.  Never has a war between so few nations reached so many ends of the Earth.  This spread is a consequence of the use of the newest phenomenon of the new millennium – the Internet.  
The Internet, which now reaches 1.97 billion users (“World Internet Users and Population Stats”), has reshaped and redefined every communication and media medium and outlet, as well as people’s everyday lives.  Information,  in the forms of audio, video, pictures, text, you name it, once put on the Internet, in instantaneously available for insemination, interpretation, and manipulation to billions of eyes worldwide.  As a form of media, the Internet has given a voice to the most minute of minorities, and provided direct access to the most massive of masses.  
The Internet has also escaped what many people and media outlets strive to evade – governmental boundaries.  The Internet has caused policy makers serious issues concerning censorship and privacy as a new international territory.  Current legislation remains content-based, that is, restricting certain sites based on highly-specific content or functions, rather than all-encompassing censorship worldwide.  
Terrorism, like the Internet and as it is known today, has a relatively new understanding.   An inclusive, global definition for terrorism was not reached until 2004 by the United Nations Secretary General; terrorism is defined as “any act intended to cause death or serious bodily harm to civilians or non-combatants with the purpose of intimidating a population or compelling a government or an international organization to do or abstain from doing any act" (“UN Reform”).   Terrorism can be practiced in the name of religion, political beliefs, or oppression of certain groups.  Terrorism can be state-supported or organized by private factions.  For my purposes, as The Center for Defense Information asserts, terrorism will be associated with the connotations created during the aftermath of the September 11, 2001 attacks on the United States.  This type of ‘terrorism’ fits a much more “egocentric” definition, but is more fitting to my interests (“A Brief History of Terrorism”).  
Now, imagine a culmination of these two elements – the Internet and this new form of Terrorism.  The outcome is frightening.  Terrorists, by definition extremists who hold beliefs that make up minority factions, who seek the most impact for the smallest cost, who exploit any possible outlets for inciting fear and intimidation in an enemy, and who thrive on anonymity and lack of government constraint, now have access, like every other individual (theoretically), to the World Wide Web.  
The outcome is what we have become all too familiar with -- video messages from Osama bin Laden threatening jihad to be taken out on America; training videos for terrorist organizations worldwide; written propaganda for organizations’ recruiting purposes.
Just as law regulating the Internet is difficult to create, so is measuring terror on the Internet’s effect on The War on Terror as a whole.  However, this is what I hope to accomplish.
I became interested in the topic after reading one of our class articles, “One More Weapon: The Use of the Web in the Middle East Conflict” (Roversi 97).  I realized that not only has war been taken to an entire new level as a result of terrorist groups’ use of the Internet, but so has the Internet itself.  I thought war could not get much dirtier, and that the Internet could not get much more blunt.  Obviously, I was wrong.  The War on Terror has revealed a shift in modern warfare – from purely physical measures, like zero sum games of numbers of troops and body counts, to something nearly entirely psychological – Americans waiting on the edge of our seats for something to be posted online from our mysterious, elusive enemy.  This profound feeling of fear, as instilled on 9/11, is what led me to choose this topic.
After preliminary research, I have gained yet another reason to continue with the topic.  I noticed an eternal contradiction, one that I have yet to get past.  In the past few years, I have become to understand The War on Terror as more of a war of East versus West, and all that the two entities stand for.  If it were truly a ‘war on terror,’ American troops would be grounded in many other areas of the world.  Terrorists, and some Middle Easterners, feel attacked by what they perceive as the Western way of life.  This includes all of the freedoms, particularly the one of expression, that we enjoy.  However, terrorists themselves have made use of the Internet, which, to me, stands entirely for Western ideals.  Why would extremists that feel so strongly about Western culture and norms being forced onto them even entertain the thought of participating in something like the Internet? 


Research Questions
The overarching question that I hope to answer is:
1) How has terrorist groups’ use of the Internet shaped The War on Terror?
Furthermore, as subquestions to guide my research, I hope to answer the following:
2) What are the major groups that utilize the Internet for terror?  In what ways to they utilize the resource?
3) How much more powerful is the Internet than mediums used in previous wars? How has the power of the Internet made The War on Terror different?
Research Methods and Tools
Because this study revolves around the impact of the Internet, it is appropriate that most of my research and findings result from the resource.
Although the topic is somewhat broad, my research will focus in on smaller examples of the conflict, relying on these cases to better represent the situation as a whole.  I will highlight the terrorist groups of Al-Qaeda (the one commonly known, to which Osama bin Laden belonged), and The Islamic Army in Iraq.  Both of these groups frequently use the Internet for purposes of terror, which I will later discuss specifically.  
I will draw my conclusions from what information is available.  Meaning quite literally, because terrorist sites disappear and reappear every minute of the day, causing a strain on the research process.  I will rely predominantly on videos and content found on the groups’ sites themselves.  I will also look to several recently published books on the topic matter.
Perhaps one of my most important resources is my Arabic teacher.  I will speak to him in regards of the languages in which material is posted on the terrorist websites.  This will give me better understanding of the targeted audience of the groups.
I expect to find some government documentation and publicity on the topic as well.  Because there is no shortage on recent events revolving around the matter, political and media discourse is sure to be loaded with information.  
As for exactly how I plan to find answers, I will use the culmination of resources to come up with broad definitions, purposes, goals, and dynamics of terrorist groups’ actions on the web.  Secondly, I plan to gauge the reaction of the mainstream media and citizens themselves to understand the perceived threat, and what reactions have taken place.  This is essentially the ‘shaping’ of The War on Terror.’
Unfortunately, I was not able to find any quantitative data on trends of terrorists’ use of the Internet.  There are a few statistics, but none that reveal much of anything other than the prevalence of terrorist websites.

Sources Review
Two sources cited previously, “World Internet Users and Population Stats” and “UN Reform” were used for the purpose of critical background information.  It is crucial to understand just how many people worldwide terrorist groups’ content is available to, as well as what terrorism is in the first place.  These sources were very helpful in accomplishing just that.
A book I came across, Terror on the Internet, and the related article  “www.terror.net How Terror Uses the Internet” were instrumental in understanding why terrorists use the Internet and in what ways they have.  Also, Weimann, the author of both the book and article, states something devastating to my research: “Surprisingly little is known about the threat posed by terrorists’ use of the Internet” (“www.terror.net”).  However, this article was written in 2004 and the book in 2006, so I will be wary to assume that all things asserted still stand true now in 2011, such as that stark statement.
Probably the most influential source, in terms of information, that I have utilized is the article we were assigned in class, “One More Weapon.”  It was essential that I read it first because of its explanation of the dynamics of the sites.  Roversi does an excellent job writing what is basically ‘Islam for Dummies,’ which is exactly what I needed to better understand terrorist groups and the meaning of the term ‘jihad’.  I believe every American should read this article.
I found multiple articles in reliable newspapers, blogs, and magazines that are relative to the topic and fairly recent, especially comparing to sources from Weimann. The articles quote both citizens and government officials.  They give significant insight into what is the mainstream understanding of the Internet’s impact on The War on Terror.  People’s voices are imperative in comprehending the real threat of the problem, considering it is not just the governments’ and militaries’ war any longer; much of the terrorists’ ammunition is available to laypeople.  
Lastly, the most compelling sources are the websites of the groups themselves.  Al Qaeda uses multiple sources to post videos and audio, while The Islamic Army of Iraq offers their own website in Arabic, English, Spanish and French.  Given tools for analyzation and interpretation from the classifications of Weimann, as well as my Arabic teacher’s advice, I feel equipped to best use these sources to answer my questions.
Findings
To begin, terrorism has distinct characteristics that separate actions from regular warfare.  Terrorism is premeditated in the sense that acts of terror are not random outbursts of rage, rather well-planned executions.  Terror is political rather than criminal; it is intended to incite political change.  Lastly, terrorism is directed at civilians, not government or military personnel.  However, the terrorism practiced by groups like Al Qaeda, which is what many people know today, may feature even more extreme characteristics, like deterritorialization, lack of state-sponsorship, a hybrid political or religious figure, ability to mutate rapidly according to circumstances, a pragmatic approach, and enormous killing power (Weimann 22).
According to Weimann, terrorist websites exist for several distinct purposes.  First and foremost, for the spread of terrorism; more specific purposes include inciting irrational fear in an enemy or opponent, creating a source of legitimacy for a terrorist group, which is most likely lacking in legitimacy, sustaining intimidation and bragging rights,  data mining and research on the enemy, and fundraising and recruitment for the group (Weimann 24).
Weimann also recognizes in his article that psychological purposes of terrorism on the Internet exist.  In some cases, terrorist groups’ web activity may emphasize lack of freedom of expression, identifying terroristic actions as the only way to be heard; demonize or deligitimize the enemy; or, expose the plight of its members (“www.terror.net”).
So this is what terrorism has come to, and its purposes are to cause both physical, political realizations and irrational psychological fear.  But why has terrorism now shifted to the Internet?  As Roversi states,  “They [terrorists] use a medium through which it is possible to literally conduct a war without limits” (“One More Weapon”).  Furthermore, the Internet is nearly a terrorist’s best friend.  The medium provides for easy access with essentially little or no government control. Audiences can be reached throughout every end of the Earth, and information is fast flowing.  Terrorists can post a plethora of multimedia, including text, audio, video, and still pictures, which second to actual attacks, is extremely effective in communicating fear.  These posts can remain anonymous, never revealing terrorists’ identities or locations to government officials.  Most importantly, because terrorists typically have few financial resources, the Internet is an extremely cost-effective method of inciting fear.  Terrorists reach everyone and everywhere for very little if any cost to them, making the benefits enormous and their decisions to post extremely rational.  What is not as obvious, but can be traced, is the Internet’s shaping of media culture.  Posts shape news coverage, because journalists more and more look to the Internet for story ideas (Weimann 30).  
I also found, with my Arabic teacher as a resource, that the target audience of terrorist groups is not what is to be expected.  Before researching, I would assume that target audiences would be highly specific – government officials, media outlets, members of the groups worldwide, and in some rare cases, civilians.  “In my opinion, these sites have two audiences of reference.  The first is constituted by Islamic populations living in Western countries.  They speak, that is to say to the Islamic diaspora, the Islamic populations which were scattered in various epochs, in Europe and in the United States . . . [the second audience to which these sites are addressed] is constituted by other armed groups . . . permitting them to keep informed about each others’ activities and state of health” (Roversi 105-108).  This is not true, however.  The target audience includes but is not limited to these parties.  This can be told through the sites and languages in which the content is published.  For example, the Islamic Army in Iraq’s site is available in Arabic, English, Spanish and French.  There is not a single continent in which at least one of these languages isnot spoken, making the target audience worldwide.  Also, As-Sahab, Al Qaeda’s official video channel, frequently posts videos through YouTube users (http://www.youtube.com/user/omarhmima).  YouTube is available in most countries.  In fact, most of the countries where YouTube is banned are Middle Eastern ones, proving that target audiences are truly worldwide (http://mashable.com/2007/05/30/youtube-bans/).  As-Sahab videos are mainly in Arabic, as I found, can be searched in English, and many translated versions are available.
Other evidence of target audience is directly related to content on the sites.  The Islamic Army of Iraq features a picture of President Obama next to red Arabic words which are seemingly angry and active, with exclamation points and blinking highlighted words.  This makes the target audiences of Americans pretty obvious.  Furthermore, press releases and training videos are aimed at other terrorist groups, claiming superiority and creating an intimidation factor ( HYPERLINK "http://www.iaisite-eng.org/" http://www.iaisite-eng.org/).
My first-hand findings with the terrorist groups’ sites somewhat matches up with what Weimann found in his book and article.  The purposes are quite clear.  However, I found that the psychological aspect of the sites is highly under-emphasized.  Most videos or audio content reveals a pattern playing on Islam.  Typically, the media opens with the statement “Allah huwa Akbar,” or “God is Greatest,” followed by prayers for peace, justice and guidance.  As Roversi discusses, this including of prayers plays on Muslims’ psyche, suggesting that it is God’s will for violent jihad, and to be obedient to God is to carry out these things.  Brainwash is definitely a strategy used.  Additionally, videos, the most realistic medium available, is used whenever available.  This leaves no space for viewers’ imaginations, painting a picture both visually and auditively, making the content seem more legitimate, credible, and believable.  For example, As-Sahab’s use of video increased exponentially in five years (See Graph 1).


The number of videos produced by as-Sahab — al-Qaeda's propaganda arm — has soared in the past two years, according to IntelCenter, a terrorism research firm in Alexandria, Va. In 2007, as-Sahab released a new video every 3½ days on average — compared with one every two months in 2002.

Lastly, I found that actual threat is only perceived, which is the purpose of terrorist groups anyway.  From 2003 to 2005, there were over 4,300 websites serving terrorists and their supporters (“www.terror.net”).  Threat is perpetuated by sites jumping daily, making proof or their existence difficult to track.  Many news outlets have reported on the threat of terrorism on the Internet, but little is done to address the reality of the threat.  The Washington Post said , “The war against terrorism has evolved into a war of ideas and propaganda, a struggle for hearts and minds fought on television and the Internet. On those fronts, al-Qaeda's voice has grown much more powerful in recent years. Taking advantage of new technology and mistakes by its adversaries, al-Qaeda's core leadership has built an increasingly prolific propaganda operation, enabling it to communicate constantly, securely and in numerous languages with loyalists and potential recruits worldwide” (“Al Qaeda’s Growing Online Offensive”).  The New York Times said, “Al Qaeda now views the Internet not only as an essential recruitment tool and means of communication with volunteers, but as a virtual training camp. No more need for Afghanistan: would-be terrorists can download manuals and videotapes that show them how to make explosive vests, car bombs, chemical weapons and poisons, and a library of tips on how to use them all effectively(Worth).  Defensetech wrote, “With cyber weaponry only requiring widely availableknowledge and skills and the only equipment required a computer that can be purchased anywhere, cyber weapons proliferation cannot be controlled(“al Qaeda’s
Top Cyber Terrorist). These are undoubtedly threats. What is debatable is whether or not anything can be done about them.
Discussion and Conclusion
In my Sources Review, I stated that I should not assume that things asserted
in 2004 and 2006 still ring true today. This remains applicable, but the statement to
which I was referring, as I have found, is correct – “Surprisingly little is known about
the threat posed by terrorists’ use of the Internet”
I feel that governments and institutions have done an adequate job of
realizing the purposes of terrorism on the Internet. Awareness is always the first
step.
However, I was ultimately disappointed in my findings because it turns out,
very few have tread far on this ground, including the United States government.
While officials may address the topic here or there, the last available report on
terror from the Department of State in 2003 does not even mention the use of the
Internet. It is difficult to accurately measure the threat when all of the data is
completely qualitative.
Also, because terroristic content is frequently removed by servers, I had less
luck than anticipated in tracking actual terrorist groupssites. For example, the user
that I found on YouTube that regularly published As-Sahab videos, and had been for
some time, was gone from the site the day after I checked it. The videos are
definitely available, but do take some digging, due to this issue.
Also, the threat, as I stated, is only as strong as its perception. Because loads
of content are uploaded to the Internet each day, possibly all containing terroristic
threats, most must be taken lightly. So, maybe the real threat here is the lack of
physical threat in itself, and the psychological power that terrorists still have
through the World Wide Web.
To answer my questions, terroristsuse of the Internet has shaped The War
on Terror in many ways. The war has gone from what could have been a revengeful
beating to a continuance of terroristsplay on our fears, like a situation of hide and
not-so-easily seek. Terrorists have used uncharted electronic territory to their
every advantage, furthering the work that begun with 9/11. The enemy has shifted
from something attainable and catchable to something nearly unknown and
untouchable, as it disseminates across the globe with its message of fear. They
shape through the Western media, which often reluctantly expresses, and
consequently spreads, these fears in order to maintain audiences. Terrorists post to
the Internet so that media will pick up their statements and demands, however
legitimate and preposterous.  Groups like Al Qaeda and The Islamic Army of Iraq are the most predominate
faces of terror on the Internet, and use mediums nearly as powerful and effective as
attacking itself to get their message across. The mediums used have turned the war
into a battle of hearts and minds, rather than soldiers and guns.
Ultimately, terroristsuse of the Internet has shaped The War on Terror to
the point where it has become unwinnable.


 
(Weimann).